My thoughts have dried completely...Feels so empty with out my words… Feels like I am once again exposed to whole world while my armor slowly melts away baring me even more with each passing second. Funny really, how in the years that passed I harbored a dream to write a book... Now as I look behind , my dream mocks me right back at face.. I hate myself for loosing my gift. .I hate myself for letting me down…

Honey its really scary as I see no world beyond you … I see nothing if I remove you from my thoughts … I am scared of the emptiness that would engulf me if you are not there to give me strength… I closed my eyes and tried to imagine my world without you and I saw nothing... Felt so helpless and weak for that moment.. It was like I was being strangled and was not allowed to shout for mercy… You have become my strength and my biggest weakness.. Honey I now know how powerful love can be … I just hope I can be strong .. Strong enough for both of us…